I'm ready to come back, if I'm wanted.

I know that these past few months have been a hard time for all of you, but you have to understand that they have been harder for me than everything ya'll have gone through.
Since I left, my life has started to crumble. I'm still really not sure if it is related to me leaving here.
While I was here (at my peak), this site was my life and passion. It's what I lived for. Everyone was my friend, my clan was the best, my rating sucked (but I had fun, and that was all that mattered to me).
I don't know if I've been away long enough, and I would really like some input on if I should stay away or not.
I know having the other screen names were wrong and I'm apologizing once more (but I'm sure this won't be the last time). I'm sorry for everything I've done to everyone!
Please forgive me.
I'd like to become a member here again.
There are two people that were directly affected by these series of incidents that never forgave me.
They are both very well known figures and both dear to my heart. I love all of you (and especially you two).
You know who you are. Please forgive me. I've tried countlessly to make things better, but all that I get in return is hateful words (which I believe that I deserved. But I am just a teenager and am a Christian. I don't need to be exposed to all the language that YOU gave me. I'm sorry, but I think what you said is uncalled for. I'm not giving your screen name for a reason. I still love ya!)
I'll send both of you a private message, which I'm sure will be deleted without reading (just like the games were).
I need someone to talk to. I am in depression and find it hard to talk but I need a friend right now in my life.
Divorce is in the midst, it looks like. I don't want it to happen, but the love has been gone from my parent's lives for a long time. I can't stand going to a public school or live in a room that is also my kitchen.
Now that you've read all this, understand this I'M NOT OUT TO GET A PITTY PARTY! I hate those and don't want sympathy right now! I just need a friend. I don't want to relive all the wrong I've done, because it only makes me feel worse.
I know this post is hard for you to read, but it is 20 times harder for me to write.

Zach918,
My only screen name

Hello Zach,

Hope things work out, I have no problems with you being here. Remember life is one catalogue of errors, mistakes, wrong desicions, insults and all the rest. You made a mistake and learn't from it. Thats cool with me.

If others can not accept your apology, that your a kid who made a mistake, thats their problem not yours. Play some chess and have some fun. Lifes to short to worry about other stuff for too long 😀

Andrew

I agree with Mr. Taylor. God bless you, Zach.

Not to be a giant jerk, and ruin this nice little party, but personally, I won't really want you back here. Whatever goes on in your personal life has nothing to do with what goes on here. I am really sorry to here that your parents are going through rough times, but what you did here was unacceptable. You'd think that someone who holds the site in such high regards would know the rules chief! Having multiple accounts is illegal enough, and I could really forgive for that no prob if you stopped, but the fact of the matter is, you then continued to steal money from others. And don't tell me that's not what it is. You made others think that some guy who couldn't afford a star needed one, and out of sheer kindness, they helped you out! Little did they know that they were scammed by some "Christian teen". My eye. 4 year olds know that stealing is wrong. Last time I checked "Thou shall not steal" was in the Commandments. You might wanna look into that. You are a thief, and a con-artist. I am not kidding when I say I don't really want you back here, but hey, if others are nicer than I, then so be it, Have a good time! Sorry to hear about your parents again.

Hi Zach,

I'm a newcomer to the site so with me at least you can start afresh - you can't go on apologising forever so forget the past and look to the future.

David🙄

Originally posted by !~TONY~!
...the fact of the matter is, you then continued to steal money from others. And don't tell me that's not what it is. You made others think that some guy who couldn't afford a star needed one, and out of sheer kindness, they helped you out.

Originally posted by zach918
I know that these past few months have been a hard time for all of you, but you have to understand that they have been harder for me than everything ya'll have gone through.
Since I left, my life has started to crumble. I'm still really not sure if it is related to me leaving here.
While I was here (at my peak), this site was my life and passion. It's w ...[text shortened]... ard for you to read, but it is 20 times harder for me to write.

Zach918,
My only screen name

I really hate arguing and don't want to do this.
Don't worry everyone, I will stay away longer. I just wasn't sure if the time had come (but now it is obvious that it hasn't...it may never come).
I've hurt many and feel like crap for it!
Tony, I really hate arguing, but the Ten Commandments do not lead us to life, they lead us to death!
It is from the Old Testament and they show us that we cannot follow them and that we need Christ!
It's understandable if you think about it. I'm sorry again. Please don't reply to this, because I really hate to fight. I just wanted to defend myself a little (even though I shouldn't. Anything you want to say to me I deserve).
Okyboy, good friend once. You're still on my friends list. I love ya, man! But that's okay if you want me to leave (and stay gone), because I am.

Thanks to all the people that want me to stay. E-mail me, I'd love to stay in touch with you!

Originally posted by zach918
I really hate arguing and don't want to do this.
Don't worry everyone, I will stay away longer. I just wasn't sure if the time had come (but now it is obvious that it hasn't...it may never come).
I've hurt many and feel like crap for it!
Tony, I really hate arguing, but the Ten Commandments do not lead us to life, they lead us to death!
It is from t ...[text shortened]...
Thanks to all the people that want me to stay. E-mail me, I'd love to stay in touch with you!

Originally posted by latex bishop
There in no mistaking Zack screwed up, but there is nothing stopping him setting up a new account and playing here anyway. He is just trying to be part of the RHP community again.
Andrew

Originally posted by zach918
I really hate arguing and don't want to do this.
Don't worry everyone, I will stay away longer. I just wasn't sure if the time had come (but now it is obvious that it hasn't...it may never come).
I've hurt many and feel like crap for it!
Tony, I really hate arguing, but the Ten Commandments do not lead us to life, they lead us to death!
It is from t ...[text shortened]...
Thanks to all the people that want me to stay. E-mail me, I'd love to stay in touch with you!

Zach,

You know I'm your friend and you have my email address. Contact me any time you need to. Let's finish our game and I hope that you will stay. I do agree with pradtf though that restitution on your part is important. I mentioned this to you before.

I appreciate you admitting that you were wrong. That is the first step. I forgive you and though others may also, it may be difficult for some to trust you. Restitution will help restore this trust.

Whether people want you back or not, the decision is yours. You have to determine whether you want to be here and then accept that there may be some that will always want you to leave. You also have to accept and understand how those who have been hurt feel. They may seem harsh in how they express their feelings, but the fact is that you were wrong and they were the ones who were hurt. You violated certain principles and rules. Keep that in mind.

I'm sorry about your parents and I will keep you and them in my prayers.

Take care,

Doug

There is a player here who will not play me. He thinks i did something for which i cannot prove my innocence. I would like to play him. We have similar ratings and are both regulars.

But that doesn't put me off. I still have a good time here.

My situation is not nearly as extreme as yours. And my outside-of-rhp emotional events are different: my parents are not getting divorced.

But I still think you can still have a good time here if you let yourself.

If I were to attempt to count the number of people that hurt me because they did not live up to my expectations of them, I would surely go mad. If I were to shun everyone I ever met that made a mistake, where would I be? I wouldn't talk to my parents. I would have no friends. Hell, I couldn't even talk to myself. Imagine that ascinine concept.

The bottom line is that people are just people. Flawed and lacking. I cannot blame a man for his mistakes, I just ask that they live up to them. I ask you, what is better: A man who is wrong and hides his error, continues to do the wrong, and struggles to defend faulty actions....or....a man who declares that he has been wrong, learns and changes, and attempts to make ammends. I think the answer is obvious.

In Zachs case, he did the honorable thing. He stepped up to plate and has suffered an unending torrent of provebial fire for it. Furthermore, he actually respected your rediculous requests to leave the site. From beginning to end, the only quarrel here should have been between Zach and Russ, and that was resolved before this "controversy" even began. Zach proclaiming his wrongs to the community was a great show of respect from him to his fellow players, and incessantly I am shown that there are a number of players here that were not worth that respect.

Zach, my advice is to come back ASAP. If anyone here has such an ego that they dare to snub their nose at you and be snide, you just tell them to go to hell (in whatever way a polite young christian boy does that). If you have nothing better to do than blast someone in the forums over a subject that has absolutely no bearance upon you (i.e. everyone but Russ), then you are not only a hypocrite enamoured with sensationalism, but YOU my friend are the one in need of help. The only person you have the right to be pointing fingers at is the one in the mirror bub.

Zach, I think the main quam people had with you was the fact that you conned one star out of someone and were attempting the same trick with two other accounts.

The fact is, you'll never get everybody's approval to return. I'm afraid that's something you'll have to live with, whether you decide to return or not. Good luck with your family Zach, in either case.


(Omnislash, as a sidenote it must be added Zach was caught before he owned up. It makes a certain difference.)