dude take it easy God is not fear
i don't think He intended us to live a life of animals who obey their master blindly
he gave us intellect so we can think for oursleves, choose right from wrong and all that free will stuff
so believe in God (i do) but don't pull yourself back just because you think God might dislike it(anything that doesn't contradict with the 10 comandements and doesn't hurt you or others is permitted by God)